Thursday, September 28, 2006

Place Your Bets: Doctor’s Orders

“There has to be something I can do.”

That phrase has been digging a hole in my head for over two years now. I think it’s the voice of human nature telling me not to accept things as they are, a voice we all tend to hear when tragedy looms and events feel beyond our control. Despite being told my illness was fatal, I was convinced there must be a way to stop it, or at least slow it down.

Once the shock had passed, I started researching the field of ALS, and soon realized my options fell into three areas: 1 FDA-approved drug, a handful of clinical trials, and a rag-tag list of alternative therapies. There didn’t seem to be any consensus among doctors, scientists, or patients as to which of them, if any, might truly work.

I’ve been to a horseracing track exactly twice in my life, and both times I felt completely clueless as to which horses to put my money on. I had never heard of any of them, and had virtually no information to go on. With ALS, it seemed as though I’d have to place a bet on one, perhaps several of the horses available, and pin my hopes on them winning the race. Given the stakes, I figured I’d be lucky for one of them to place. Or show.

My initial neurologist tried to reassure me by saying there is a prescription drug to slow the progression of ALS. She made it sound like a sure-fire bet. But she failed to mention that the drug, Rilutek, was approved by the FDA more than 10 years ago, and has yet to prove itself even remotely effective. Here we are, nearly 70 years after Lou Gehrig put ALS on the map, and we only have one lousy treatment.

From what I’ve read, statistics show that based on the average life expectancy of 2 to 5 years, Rilutek gives you another 3 months, if that. Each pill adds perhaps 2 hours to your life. Of course I immediately considered downing the whole bottle, but apparently you should only take two a day since it can be tough on your liver.

Three months is better than none of course. But I find it ridiculous to call it a treatment, especially when it costs more than $11,000 a year. I suspect most doctors regard it as a rather limited tool in their bag of tricks, and little more than a formality to prescribe. It’s the only medicine they can officially suggest you try. Still, as long as its covered by insurance, I’ll take it. It’s something I can do. And it helps a little to keep my hopes, if not necessarily my legs, alive and kicking.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Place Your Bets: All Or Nothing

Doctor: Did you know you can go to the racetrack and, for as little or as much money as you want, you can bet on any of several horses to win the race?

Patient: Sounds simple enough. What do I get if I win?

Doctor: You get to live.

Patient: Um, OK. So what happens if I lose?

Doctor: If you lose, and I must tell you the odds are much greater that you will, you’ll die.

Patient: Doc, to be honest with you, I’m not sure this is a game I really want to play.

Doctor: I’m sorry, but it’s too late. You’re already playing. Even if you don’t place a bet, you will lose.

Patient: Well that pretty much sucks.

Doctor: You’re right. It does. But there’s more. None of the horses you can bet on has ever won a race. In fact, none of them are likely to even finish much less win. One horse has corporate sponsorship, but has yet to prove himself. Several others are in training, practicing for the big race, but nobody is very confident they can win. The rest of them are long shots.

Patient: Oh this game just keeps getting better and better. So what would you recommend I do?

Doctor: Legally speaking, I can only advise you to try betting on the officially sponsored horse. Perhaps you can do some research on the rest of the field. But ultimately, you’ll have to make up your own mind.

Patient: So you’re telling me that I’m playing this game for my life, whether I want to or not, that most of the horses I can bet on will probably lose, and that if I don’t place any bets at all, I will almost certainly die?

Doctor: Essentially, yes. Those are the stakes of the game.

Patient: I see. Well then, I guess I’ll have to go place a few bets.